You are correct, the Clownductor will never fully understand your experience. What you went through, what you had to endure.

[ For in Obi-Wan's mind, this whole business is the will of the Force, and the Force does not seek good or evil, it seeks balance. There are absolutely people here who would not have survived some of those cars without someone else, but that was the point. The journey, not the destination. ]

And I do not think that is the point.

You are here, having these experiences, whether you like it or not. If you are always jumping, as you say, then why not jump into this as well?